I have been a member of the SUU Ballroom Dance Company for 4 years now. That’s four wonderful years of 6am practice, pounds of heavy makeup, gallons of hairspray to secure my helmet head, performing, dancing and creating a place for myself, a family if you will. This morning was my last early morning. I started my morning by purposely being a little bit late so I could get the famous but shameful call from a fellow dancer asking if I had overslept and ended it with a team breakfast at the All American Diner, an almost weekly tradition with the team.
As we danced our show this morning I thought about how my 4 years at SUU had come full circle. When I started at SUU I was recovering from my first knee surgery and struggled with the pain up until, really, my second knee surgery. I had danced and fallen and cried and laughed and gained life long friends. My time on the team really ended the same way it started, a gimpy girl looking for her next adventure. The last five months have been some of the most challenging I’ve ever experience but I have learned so much! I learned that teams really do catch you when you fall, literally. I learned that sometimes you do have to ask for help even when you really, really don’t want to. I learned that although now may seem like the time of your life to everything you absolutely can, your body still has years ahead so take care of yourself. And the biggest lesson learned is the importance of self-love. Sometimes crappy things happen emotionally and/or physically but it’s not your fault, thats just a little thing called life. If you waste all of your time and energy hating yourself for not doing this and that, recovery will never be possible. YOU have to love YOU and everything else will work itself out.
In the famous words of RuPaul, “If you can’t love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an Amen?”